unsettled.

happy tuesday!

well, we had a wonderful weekend in athens and we finished the race! Will ran great and had a strong race... I, on the other hand, well... didn't feel strong- but what is important is Will... he is even considering another half-marathon in the sometime future...

we had a great time on our first "married couples trip" though and hope there are more in the future. i'm thankful not only to have gone to the university of georgia- but also to have gone to a college in such a fun town like athens. it is definitely one of my favorite places!

now that the race is over...and training is over... i've got a strong itch. "Itch?" yes, itch.

What Do I Do With My Time Now? What Goals Must I Set? What Must I Accomplish Next?
(Will I run another half soon? Will I run in another race? Will I go back to school? Will I just take classes? Will I take an administrative test instead? The list goes on...and on...)

they plague my thoughts daily... well, they already plagued me before the race but now it is even more frequent.

as a newly married woman (6 months last Sunday, to be exact), i'm finding it harder to live in that place called denial (ain't just a river in egypt...). thankfully, marriage is a daily reminder of how selfish and flawed we actually are... and poor Will has to help guide me.

news flash: i find my worth in my accomplishments (sometimes failures)... this is bad!

example: my "bad" race on Sunday (which i almost let overshadow my husband's accomplishment) seemed to shatter my life (exaggeration). i was inconsolable. i felt like a failure.

i'm so thankful i have a husband who is not only encouraging, but who also shows me (daily) why i need Jesus. regardless of how any race goes, any meal turns out, or how many silly mistakes i make, God still loves me and more importantly, is sovereign. He is over all things in my life and sadly, i don't trust Him enough.

so as i fight to figure out what "to do with my life," i hope to be more prayerful than worryful and more trusting than fearful. i also hope the source of my worth is not from anything worldly but from everything Godly. please feel free to pray for me as well...

i'm thankful for my hubs who challenges me and for a God who provides for me (in His perfect timing).